It’s painful and lonely to be in love with someone you cannot have.
I laid my heart bare to you. I showed you every aspect of my love for you, and you showed me yours. I don’t know what we are. I don’t know what we will ever be, but I do know that loving you has been my greatest regret. My greatest heartbreak. My greatest sin. I used to dream that our stars would one day align; honestly, I still do. But I now understand that chemistry is the only thing we are and the only thing that will ever be. It doesn’t matter how hard I love you or how hard I pray for you. I’ll only ever be your second choice. I’ll only ever be the girl that watches you from the sidelines, waiting for you to come running back.
It’s painful and lonely being in love with you.